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  Dan stood on the lawn, his back to her. He was dressed but barefoot, the wind ruffling his hair.

  She started to turn away, but stopped. There was something so . . . solitary and sad about the scene. Something about his posture, the way his hands hung at his sides, told her that he was hurting.

  She shoved her feet inside her sneakers, went down the back stairs, and pushed open the kitchen door. The scent of fresh meadow and salty sea hit her nostrils as she climbed a rise to stand next to Dan.

  “Did you notice that the house is in a hollow?” Dan asked without turning to greet her. “And it’s invisible from the road. We have three exit points — the road, the sea, and across the field. This is Grace’s safe house.”

  “I hadn’t thought of it that way.” And it hurt to see that her little brother had figured it out. He should be pitching baseballs, not noticing escape routes.

  Dan stared with a fierce gaze at the inlet. His chin trembled. “I let go,” he said. “On the bridge. I had you, and I let go.”

  “You saved me,” Amy said quietly. “You caught me as I went over. And you held on while some goon was strangling you.”

  “Amy . . .” Dan turned to her. His face was anguished. “I felt you slipping. I had you, and then I couldn’t hold on. I couldn’t hold on! I thought you were dead!”

  “You caught me!” Amy cried. “You saved my life! And I’m here, Dan. I’m right here because of you.”

  “I’m the reason we had to run away,” he said. “I was so stupid! I got us into this mess. I’m the reason Pierce has the serum. Now he’s trying to kill us, and we probably have the FBI looking for us, too. I just messed up everywhere, big-time. I never get it right.”

  “You get it right plenty of the time,” Amy said. “Maybe not all the time. But nobody does. Especially not me.”

  “I’ll follow this through,” Dan said. “I have to — I started it. We’ll stop J. Rutherford Pierce together. But after that, I’m out.”

  “What do you mean, out?” Amy asked, startled.

  Dan took a breath. “I don’t want you to think this is one of my crazy impulsive decisions. I mean it. I don’t want to be a Cahill anymore.”

  “You can’t just . . . resign!”

  “Fiske did. He left. He renounced the family. He disappeared, traveled all over the world. . . .”

  “Fiske was an adult when he did that! You’re only thirteen!” Amy shook her head. “Look, Dan. We’ve both felt like quitting plenty of times — we’ve scraped the very bottom. And we’ve always found a way to go on.”

  Dan’s mouth was twisted with the effort not to cry. “This is different!”

  “It’s always different,” Amy said soothingly. “But then we —”

  “NO!” Dan shouted the word, and Amy’s mouth snapped shut.

  “No,” he said, more quietly, and that stillness frightened her more than his outburst. “I haven’t figured it all out yet. But I’ve been through enough. I’ve done enough to know this: I don’t want to be a Cahill anymore. I don’t want to live in Attleboro. I don’t want any of it.”

  Amy felt his words like a knife in her heart. “You want to . . . leave me?”

  “Of course not!” Dan slammed his hand against his leg in frustration. “I just . . . can’t . . . live like this anymore. Maybe I can live with Nellie somewhere . . . for a while. Maybe Fiske will take off again and I can go with him. Not forever. You can keep training, and keep the Cahill network going, and keep staying alert for the next bad guy to come along. Because there’ll always be another one. But I don’t want to. I . . . can’t!” The word was torn out of his throat. She saw his shoulders shaking. He held his head in both hands. “You don’t know what it’s like,” he whispered. “To have the serum in your head.”

  Amy opened her mouth, but nothing came out. Of course she didn’t know. Couldn’t know. What was she supposed to do? Yell at Dan? Plead with him? Tell him that he was abandoning her? When obviously this was the hardest decision he’d ever made?

  Wasn’t this what she wanted for him? Safety? A little bit of normal? No matter how much it cost her. No matter how much it hurt.

  “Okay,” she said. “We’ll work it out. I won’t stand in your way.”

  “You’ll still be my sister. That won’t change.”

  “I know.”

  They were silent for a while, listening to the wind in the grass. Amy felt turned inside out by Dan’s pain. Her brother looked so young at that moment, standing in the grass barefoot, with his messy bed head. But his eyes looked older. Older than a thirteen-year-old’s should look.

  If he had to let go of her to have a normal life, the right thing, the brave thing, would be to let him go. But could she?

  Clouds had covered the sun, and the inlet was now iron gray with flecks of white. Amy shivered.

  If she let Dan go, she’d be alone.

  After a hasty breakfast, they wheeled the bicycles out of the garage and headed for the lane.

  “Left, or right?” Amy asked.

  “I think I remember seeing the headlights turn right last night,” Dan said.

  “And it’s downhill,” Amy said. “Let’s try it.”

  They pedaled for some minutes in silence. Soon they saw another bicyclist heading toward them.

  “Excuse me, sir? Which way is the village?” Amy called.

  “Not too far,” he answered shortly, and pedaled quickly away.

  They kept on pedaling. After a bit they saw a woman exit a cottage by the road and stop to water a pot full of bright red flowers.

  “Excuse me, is this the way to the village?” Dan called.

  “Sure, if you keep on, you’ll hit something or other,” the woman replied, and turned and walked quickly back into her house.

  “Super McFriendly folks here in leprechaun land,” Dan observed.

  But after about ten minutes of riding, the road dipped and curved, and the village appeared, a cluster of houses and shops. They jumped off their bikes and leaned them against the side of a grocery with a bright blue door.

  The bell jangled as they walked in. A young woman sat behind the counter, reading a book. She didn’t look up.

  Picking up a wicker basket, they filled it with food. They put the basket on the counter.

  “It’s a pretty village,” Amy said. “Have you lived here long?”

  “Long enough.” She totaled up their purchases.

  “Is there a good place to eat lunch nearby?” Dan asked.

  “Folks say Sean Garvey’s is good, but whether you’ll think it is I can’t predict,” the girl said.

  “Can we leave our groceries here for now?” Amy asked.

  “Suppose you can.”

  “Nice to meet you, too,” Dan said.

  They walked out. Across the street they saw a sign for Sean Garvey’s and swung open the door. The bar was crowded with locals, and they all fell silent as Amy and Dan walked in. A pretty waitress with reddish hair and hazel eyes led them to a table by the window and put two menus on the table.

  “I’m starting to get the feeling I’m not wanted,” Dan said.

  “I guess they’re not used to strangers,” Amy said.

  Dan studied the menu. “I think I’ll skip the bangers and mash. I feel like I’ve been banged and mashed enough already.”

  They ordered sandwiches and observed the locals. Dan kept having an odd feeling, as though he was in a familiar place. He’d never been to this part of Ireland, or this village, yet he recognized something about it.

  The waitress frowned as she folded napkins, and Dan felt a jolt.

  She looks like Amy.

  What was it? The way her mouth turned down? The shape of her face?

  He looked back at Amy as she chewed her sandwich. Now she looked nothing like the waitress, really. He must be crazy.

/>   After lunch they bought backpacks and spare clothes at a small store. Then they walked through the nearby churchyard. At least they didn’t have to worry about people staring at them.

  Dan paused to rest, leaning against a massive rock streaked with moss.

  “Dan, what are you doing? It might be a gravestone.”

  “It’s not a gravestone, it’s just a rock.” Dan stepped away and ran his hands along the stone. “See? No carvings.” Just as he said that, his fingers traced a depression in the stone. He followed the line up, slightly down, up again, tracing a letter in the stone.

  He scraped at the moss with a fingernail, clearing it away. “Amy . . . look at this.”

  She leaned down. “I don’t see anything.”

  Dan continued to work at the stone, scraping off the moss. Then he stepped back and they caught their breath.

  It was the Madrigal M.

  Chapter 14

  The girl was in the same position at the grocery, still reading a book.

  “We were just walking in the churchyard,” Amy said in a casual tone, “and we noticed this gigantic rock there.”

  “One of our more thrilling sights here in the village,” the girl said. She flipped a page in her book.

  “There’s an M traced in the surface of the rock,” Dan said. “And it looks really ancient.”

  “It’s just a rock,” the girl said. “I doubt there’s anything carved in it.”

  Dan knew the girl was lying by the way she turned a page of her book. She hadn’t had time to read it. He held out the picture he’d taken on his phone. He’d snapped it and sent it to Nellie.

  She flicked a quick glance at it. “I don’t see anything. Let me get your groceries.” She turned and leaned down to pick up the sack.

  Dan gave Amy a sharp nudge. Tattooed on the small of the girl’s back was clearly a Madrigal M.

  Amy took the sack in her arms. “If it’s just a rock,” she said, “why is the same M tattooed on your back?”

  For the first time, they saw emotion on the girl’s face as her pale skin was splashed with pink.

  “It’s a symbol of the village,” she said, lifting her chin and brushing a strand of dark hair out of her eyes. “Meenalappa.”

  “Then why didn’t you say that about the rock?”

  “Must I have chats about rocks with every eejit tourist that walks into my shop?” she asked defiantly. “Now get back to your tourist bus and kiss my Blarney Stone.”

  “We’re not from a tourist bus,” Dan said. “We’re staying at a cottage nearby. Bhaile Anois.”

  The girl stared at them. Her gaze moved from Dan’s face to Amy’s and then back again. Then the tenseness left her body, and she smiled.

  “That Declan. He’s thick as a plank. You’d think your own brother would let you know who he drove to the cottage last night. I heard there was a tourist bus in the next village — they’ve a nice church there, it’s on the tourist track. Sometimes the folks walk down here for lunch at the pub. Sorry to bite your heads off. We’re very protective about our village, especially when there’s people staying at Bhaile Anois.”

  “That’s okay,” Dan said. It was amazing how a grin transformed the girl’s face.

  “There’s Cahill all over you,” the girl said. “I should have seen it.”

  “We’re Grace Cahill’s grandchildren,” Amy said.

  “Dan and Amy, of course. Anyway,” she said, “we have a saying in my house, and in the village. Anything for Grace. Now that includes you. Oh, where are my manners, I’m Fiona Kilhane. My grandmother was caretaker of the cottage — she was a good friend of Grace’s. I’m sorry about her passing.”

  “Thank you,” Amy said.

  “Tell us about the rock,” Dan said.

  “It’s almost as old as the village itself,” Fiona said. “It goes beyond memory, back into folklore, I guess. The children of every generation tell the tales of the villager the rock commemorates. Hundreds and hundreds of years ago, she was born here. She went away for a long time and returned to have a daughter, only to go away again. The children call her a good witch. It’s said that she protected the village from the plague, that she was a selkie from Atlantis, that she spun threads into gold. Her name was —”

  “Olivia.” Amy breathed the name.

  “That’s right,” Fiona said. “Grace must have told you the legend. Many years later, her daughter returned here. She carved an M in the stone.”

  “Madrigal,” Dan said.

  “Oh, yes — that name has come down to us. We call it the Madrigal rock. It’s a symbol of the village, I guess, our Madrigal.”

  Dan felt Amy’s excitement match his. Fiona was talking about their ancestor Olivia Cahill. Her daughter Madeleine had been the first Madrigal.

  This is our ancestral village, Dan thought. This is where Olivia Cahill was born.

  Amy and Dan pedaled back to Bhaile Anois. Now the landscape looked fresh and meaningful to them. This is where they came from.

  “Why an M, though?” Dan asked Amy.

  “Because she couldn’t put up a stone with her mother’s name on it,” Amy guessed. “It would have been too dangerous. Maybe the word Madrigal had a secret meaning to both of them.”

  They pushed through the tall hedge, and the white farmhouse sat snug and bright in its hollow. Dan felt Amy next to him, her hands resting lightly on the handlebars. She, too, was looking at the house. He knew that she was thinking the same thing. It was that mind-meld that happened with them so often.

  “Grace had a reason she wanted us to come here,” he said. “And it wasn’t just protection.”

  “I know.”

  They wheeled the bikes into the garage and brought their bags into the house.

  “Whenever we’ve needed her, she’s been there,” Amy said. “Even after she was gone. She gave us McIntyre and Fiske and Nellie. And now she’s led us here.”

  “It’s here,” Dan said. “Whatever it is. There’s something in the house.”

  They exchanged the briefest of glances, then sprang into action. Amy headed to the small study off the kitchen. She searched the desk and the bookshelves. She pressed against floorboards and tapped against walls.

  Dan headed upstairs. He poked around the rooms, moving dressers and examining floorboards for a telltale loose board. He scrutinized the gray stone fireplace in the master bedroom where Amy had slept. He crawled over the floors of the remaining small, spare bedrooms. He knocked on their walls.

  Finally, he climbed the winding wooden staircase to the attic bedroom, so small it had room only for a bed and a small table. One high round window gave a faint glimpse of blue sky. There was no closet, only a row of pegs along one wall.

  Frustrated, he started down the stairs again. He hit the landing and made the turn, pounding down the remaining stairs.

  He stopped.

  He walked up the stairs again.

  Then down.

  Dan dropped to his knees. He examined every inch of the staircase, crawling up and down it. When he reached the bottom, he saw Amy standing in the hall, watching him.

  “Yeah,” he said. “I’m probably crazy. But there’s something different about the sound of the stairs at the top from the bottom. It’s just a little thing, but —”

  He stopped. Amy had leaned right next to a candle sconce. It had a mirror backing, so that the candlelight would be caught and reflected. In that muddy reflection he’d seen it. The matching sconce on the other wall was slightly different. The metal scrollwork on the ledge was a different design. But in all other respects the sconces were a perfect pair.

  He ran his fingers along the scrollwork. Carefully, he tugged on the sconce itself. It moved in his hand and he quickly tried to catch it. It hung steady, still anchored to the wall, but a few inches away. He pulled it all the way down, and the sta
ircase rose into the air.

  Beyond it was a secret room.

  Dan walked up a few steps and peered in. Then he turned to Amy.

  “After you,” he said.

  Chapter 15

  Amy passed through the opening. She straightened and felt along the wall for a light switch. It turned on a pretty lamp with a blue glass shade that sat on a white table.

  Dan followed. They were in a small, square room. The floorboards were painted white and the ceiling sky blue, perhaps to make up for the lack of windows. The room was tucked under the eaves. Amy guessed that it would be impossible to tell from outside the house that it existed.

  Next to the white table was a wooden chair with a deep purple cushion on the seat. She could visualize Grace sitting in the chair with her straight-backed posture. There was a painting on one wall, and on the other an ornate gold mirror.

  She walked closer to the table and leaned over to study the painting. The childlike forms depicted brightly colored woods and sky and a splash of yellow against a green field. She recognized it immediately. She had given it to Grace for her birthday when Amy was nine. She had worked on it so carefully — it was the view from Grace’s window seat in the library. The place they used to curl up together with a pot of cocoa and a plate of cookies. She had painted it in spring, when the giant forsythia bush was blooming. Grace had called the bush “George” because she had buried a favorite goldfish there years before. “Oh, I see George is ready to bloom,” she would say in early spring.

  Dan walked over to a wooden filing cabinet next to the table. He opened the drawer and flicked through the files. Amy stood, looking over his shoulder. The files were marked by Grace’s strong handwriting.

  Amy flipped through them. “These are duplicates,” she said. “These files are all downstairs in the study.”

  “Why would Grace need two sets of files?” Dan wondered.

  “Because these are a cover,” she said. She began to remove the files, stacking them neatly on the desk.